pardon the title...
im fucking crazy, i swear i am Dx
i need a word for the following shit..."im so sad that im becoming angry at how insanely happy i am way down inside below all the sadness"
i think that deep down, its suicidalness but then i'm just being stupid. i dont care how much i might think about dieing, i know i could never kill myself. so then what is it?
what the fuck do you call that? insanity? pure shit? idiocracy?
well i dont know that the fuck is up with me, but im so fucking stupid and i hate myself for being all jacked up. i want a therapist dammit and i do apologize for all the cussing. in a way, every curse word a say makes me feel a tiny bit better, so sorry. and i know that no one gives a shit but i really just need to type this crap. thanks mr.dAjournal.

i dont even know what emotion to put on this journal....WHY ISN'T THERE ONE FOR ME?!
let's go with psychotic....

...i think i just need sleep

A Random Anime Survey!

Most favorite: naruto, bleach, full metal alchemist, death note, kamichama karin, pita-ten, FLCL, Samurai Champloo

Least favorite: It sucks so bad I don't even know what it's called

Fav male character: kakashi, gaara, rock lee, neji, L, light, ryuk, shikamaru, chouji, edward elric, sasuke, orochimaru, kimimaro, lots more ^_^

Fav female character: sakura (in shippuden) tsunade, ino

fav animal/creature character: does ryuk count?

How long have you watched anime?: for like....3 or 4 years?

Why did you become a fan?: because it's awesome :3

Will you be a fan forever?: i think i will ^_^

Do you think any anime characters are hot?: eh, hot's not really the word but i suppose L and Light...ryuk's pretty sexy too

like yaoi?: heck yes

like yuri?: not really

like hentai?: peshaw....maybe

own a lot of hentai?: none

you're a big pervert right?: *cough*

like bishounen?: word

like bishoujo?: naah

read manga?: of course

have any untranslated manga?: nope

fav manga: kamichamam karin, pita-ten, fma

what anime magazines do you own?: a kagillion shounen jump mags

how much manga do you have?: about 40+

how many anime DVDs or VHS?: 6 or 7

own any fansubs?: nope

make your own fansubs?: nope, im too lazy

do you draw anime?: jeeessss

good at it?: meh...i think i need work

do you use software like Photoshop?: but of course

ever use Oekaki applets?: um, does microsoft paint count?

have any doujinshi?: nope D:

ever make your own doujinshi?: i want to...

do you write fanfics?: in my miiiind

read fanfics?: heck yes

what anime merch do you own?: naruto and fma

Does Japan is general interest you?: mmm, yeah i guess...

Do you like other Japanese stuff that's not anime?: yes?

Ever eaten Pocky or Pucca?: pocky, ME LOVE POCKY!

Want to visit Japan?: jes

fav anime quote or phrase: dattebayo!

character you most relate to: um...sakura i think...

ever cosplay?: i want to..

cosplayed as who?: nobody D:

gone to anime conventions?: i want to D:

how many?: zero T_T

fav convention: no?

I got this from if you want it too, be my guest. ^_^

im trying to change my avatar xD
it's not working....im putting in the file source and clicking ok but it wont work....
help me xD

Well, I'm back sort of kind of. By that I mean....I will constantly be on here but! When I upload stuff it'll be VERY rarely and what I put up wont be fantastic. If you were expecting me to have gotten better over the time I abandoned dA, then think again. In fact, I was just being a loser and bumming out around my house. I tried to draw and that didnt work so I just slept a lot and ate a lot. Same as always....

So some things happened when I was gone and here's what
-I tried out for All-County Band (on bassoon)
-I made it in All-County
-I got a butt load better at bassoon
-I learned who my stalker was o_e
-I got my pen tablet :3
-Some funny funny shizz happened with me and my sister that involved nipples and that craaazy show, Heroes. :3

mkay, that's it...

im gonna make this quick....
im gonna be on and off of dA for a while so dont expect anything, not like you were anyways...but i wont really do a lot of comments or anything and once again will go on a "no art upload" kinda thing. ok, have fun without me