pardon the title...
im fucking crazy, i swear i am Dx
i need a word for the following shit..."im so sad that im becoming angry at how insanely happy i am way down inside below all the sadness"
i think that deep down, its suicidalness but then i'm just being stupid. i dont care how much i might think about dieing, i know i could never kill myself. so then what is it?
what the fuck do you call that? insanity? pure shit? idiocracy?
well i dont know that the fuck is up with me, but im so fucking stupid and i hate myself for being all jacked up. i want a therapist dammit and i do apologize for all the cussing. in a way, every curse word a say makes me feel a tiny bit better, so sorry. and i know that no one gives a shit but i really just need to type this crap. thanks mr.dAjournal.

i dont even know what emotion to put on this journal....WHY ISN'T THERE ONE FOR ME?!
let's go with psychotic....

...i think i just need sleep